No loss of dignity

After last night, I had to sleep off the tears and sadness of being alone in this city. Shawn asked me a very crucial question, if I regret my decision to move here. No, I don't. I have the balls to do what I know many could not. I have zero family, and zero friends here. I know one person who is staying here until December. I am excited that I did this, but of course there is always going to be the hard times that come with it. I think that whole gym guy situation just exacerbated my situation. But, I've worked really hard these last few years, leaving my b/f (now my ex b/f) the only guy I've ever loved to go to grad school 3,000 miles away. Before that I went through some bumpy years before I finished my undergrad. There's nothing more satisfying then knowing that I've exceeded my own expectations and the expectations of those who knew me during those bumpy years. So, fuck the gym guy. I have worked too fucking hard and too long to let some horny guy use me for his personal pleasure. There are many decisions I made that I think changed the course of my life. I wonder if I had gone home after a year in Buffalo like I was supposed to, if my ex and I would have stayed together. Maybe. Maybe not. But, I've never been the kind of girl to forsake my education or career for any guy. Or my dignity.