Apologies

So its come to my attention that I've turned into a pretentious jerk since living in NYC for 3 months. I will agree to that. I will also say that its difficult to go back "home" to a boring suburb after living here. No other place in the world compares to New York and its not fair to make that comparison. I think I just associate all the old things with that suburb, like ex boyfriends, high school and having nothing to do but going to the mall. I just don't think I can live in California at this stage in my life. There is so much I want to do right now that I cannot do in California. The advertising/marketing industry is huge in New York and most companies are headquartered here. Learning how to dance or knit or join a roller derby team is only a subway ride away, I can't do those things so easily in any other place. The diversity of extracurricular activities are on a grand scale here. I never meant to be a jerk, and I'm not trying to say I'm too good for Cali, and this was pointed out to me many times, but I just feel that its not where I should be right now. I need to be here, I was called to live in New York at this point in my life.