In my Life

Life is rather interesting, and there's nothing like a love letdown to remind you of all the crazy little things life has brought to us unexpectedly. I have no idea what to expect anymore. I have a history of dating scumbags. I have dated some of the meanest raging assholes in all of California. Some of the things they have said to me I couldn't even bring myself to repeat. Even today when I think about it sometimes I still feel a little hurt. Two of these mean scumbags whom I never thought cared about me have both apologized to me since then. Both have expressed extreme regret for things they did to me and with nothing to gain because both are in serious relationships with other people. That was unexpected. Also unexpected is the fact that I have not heard from my ex in almost 2 years, though I thought what we had was real love. So at this point I don't really have any expectations for anything anymore. Incidentally, I was watching the Wonder Years and heard this song from John Lennon. I felt it was apropos.

In My Life
There are places I'll remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends, I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life, I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I'll love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I'll love you more