Rambles

I went to see Shakespeare in the Park last night at Central Park. It was pretty good. I saw some random famous people whose names I don't know. I'm finding that every moment that I'm not spending with a friend or pseudo acquaintance throws me into a whirlwind of loneliness. I just don't feel like I can be alone right now and its very difficult because I don't really have any friends here. I mean last night was a perfect example of why I don't do things in the city. I left Central Park around 10:45 and didn't get into my house until 1:00 am. I'm trying to fill up my weekend with people so that I'm not stuck alone. My daily multiple conversations with Chris had taken away the loneliness I was feeling when I moved here, and now its all back. I feel like I lost a close friend, but at the same time it makes me sick because I feel like he scumbagged me and that's not what friends do to each other. I'm waiting for something in my life to change, and maybe it will. I have a phone interview with a huge company that may or may not be your email provider. The office is in Santa Monica, they asked me if I was flexible to leave New York as soon as possible, and I said that I was. "I have no commitments in New York" was my answer. We'll see what happens I guess. I just wish I could be in a better mood.