Career and Family.

Much like my fellow blogger pointed out in his comments on my last post, I haven't been living up New York as much as I should be. As a result my posts consist of my desire for Cali guy and Chocolate Soy Milk. I will offer two reasons for this: 1. Its pretty cold right now, and for a warm-blooded Socal girl like myself, anything below 70 degrees is dehabilitating. 2. I live in Brooklyn, and train schedules on the weekend run wonky, so a ride into the city is an hour. Another reason I think is that I've sort of lost desire to live in New York. I enjoy the performing arts and the stuff to do, but I don't always feel like paying $50 for entertainment. I went to the most amazing flamenco performance on Tuesday and its times like that I'm thankful I live here. I've sort of come to realize that my life is sort of empty. I was always career-minded and ambitious. The sort of girl that wanted a man but didn't need one. Recently, I started to realize that I have no one to come home to, no one to share my life with. I'm starting to feel like maybe the idea that someone doesn't need another person is just hype. Maybe I was wrong. Suddenly, the idea of having a family seems appealing to me. Having a career and a family sounds ideal to me. I hear of the women who get married and have a family and never get a chance to go to school or pursue a career and harbor feelings of resentment. Lucky for me I did have the chance and now I think I want a family too. These thoughts are just developing, we'll see if this changes.